The blithe existence of a righteous man

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2006-07-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

Adventure Camp 2

2006-06-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ok, so i haven't posted in a really long time, i'd wager that its a little something called procrastination...Anyway, i feel that what has happened in camp and all that is too important to ignore and procrastinate over. As you may have already guessed, this post is about Adventure Camp 2.

I had felt in the months leading up to camp that God was going to do something great not just in the lives of others, but also in my own. I went to camp expecting not to give, but to first receive, and I know that i was not dissapointed. I had been feeling rather discouraged and angsty about the state of the world around me, as i saw the travesty that man commits on a day to day basis, and the deadness in the eyes of the people that wandered the streets, without meaning, without purpose. What i saw saddened me simply because i thought that there was nothing that i could do. After all, how can one man change the world?

Camp was fun and all that, but the thing which i know that i will always remember camp for is the prescence of God there, the thick annointing that was prevalent through the camp, because games are fun and all, but what really changes lives is not the games, its the presence of Jesus. Where Jesus is, the water is turned to wine, the blind see, the dead live, the lame walk, the captives are made free again. Where Jesus is, there can be no lack, only providence. Where Jesus is , there are is no mourning, only dancing. Jesus was there in that camp.

To me, this camp was a camp of restoration, acceleration, and impartaion. I went to this camp asking God for restoration of what i had lost sight of over the ages, the passion for Christ, the depth of revelation that He had given me regarding Himself, and the awareness of His love for me. I know that He has restored, else i wouldnt even be posting would i? other than that, i just know that its already been given, and i dunneed to worry bout it anymore...

Abit of a sidetrack here, just to explain the purpose of this blog etc. The person i'm writing to, the you etc, is actually me. I wrote this blog to me. These are all letters to me, to remind me when i'm weak of who i really am, to remind me of what i really have, and to remind me of who really loves me. I am always amazed by the depth of revelation and all that that i used to hold, and all that i had written really ministers to myself when i need it the most. My life is irrelevant if it fails to glorify Jesus, as are my words.

Anyway, i realize that i ramble alot, but the core of what i received was this: That i really want to live my life for Christ, or not at all. What is the point of life if it is lived for the self, for self fulfilment, for pleasure, for knowledge, or even for other people? It would be void. To live for the self is to die by yourself. I used to know this, but i just never really lived it too the full because i had always thought that i had so much time ahead of me, that i am still young etc, But i realized recently that i do not have as much time as i used to think, none of us have. If we live, let us live to the fullest for Christ, that in everything, Christ is glorified in our lives, that He shall be lifted high in our lives, that we shall be living testaments to his goodness. We do not know the number of our own days, so we shall endeavour to live each day like the last, to live fully for Christ. The time for time wasting is over, and now is the time to stand for what we believe in truly. We have spent far too much time apologizing for Jesus, far too much time being afraid of what others think of us. Man will fade and pass away, but Christ will still remain. Awaken, and see the glory that God has meant for us to walk in! We were not meant to struggle as we do, we were meant to fly above our circumstances. Do not be afraid, for when you trust in Him, he will back you up in your words and in your deeds. God will not dissapoint you, this is His promise to you, a covenant made with the blood of Christ.

One thing i learned alot about form this camp was worship, and what it meant. Worship isnt an action, its a reaction. Its a reaction to the person of Jesus. When you see Jesus and His work at the cross, you will worship. Whenever anyone saw Him for who He was, they worshipped Him. To see him is to worship, To see Him is to receive all that you need. When you worship, God works for you, to turn your problems into vicotries. When you are faced with a problem, turn to Jesus and worship, and recognize that He is God, and He is God in your life, and celebrate the fact that He has won the victory for you. This is not your battle, this is your victory. Smile, Jesus loves you:)

O level Students look here

2006-06-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

Hey there beloveds! If ur taking ur o's and all that, and want to improve your english vocab for compo, leave me a tag with your email, and i'll pass you my vocab list. Remember, the battle is the Lords:)

After a Very Mega Long Hiatus....

2006-05-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

Man, its been ages, almost a year to be exact, twice hath the solstice gone by and other poetic nonsense etc.... Any way, its been a rather interesting year thats gone by, a year older, a year wiser, and a year which finds myself being propelled towards the somewhat dreadful inevitability of army life. Ah well. In anycase, got a fun website for y'all for now, www.creativecommunity.sg , rather interesting, if i decide to start my own business. If you do, you can practically apply to 4 diff gov. funding schemes to start up (probably). Hurrah for our government! GE is over! PAP won! Yay! Exclamation marks!!

The failures of the past cannot keep you from the victories in your future

2005-06-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

In life, there will always be failure. Not maybe there will be failure, its a definite thing. Every day that we live, we are bound to fail someway or other. Maybe we do something we don't want to do, maybe we don't do something we want to, it may even be that we fail our exams. Don't let these things steal your victory, your triumph, because you have all victory in Christ. Many times when we fail at some thing, subsequently we think that there is no way that we could ever succeed at it.

"I failed once, what makes you think I'll succeed this time?"

Sounds familiar? Thats because thats what many of us think, whether we admit or not. Its what psychologists call learned helplessness, where we are so caught up with our own failure that we believe that we cannot do something.

With God, all things are possible. Just because you fail once doesn't mean that you will fail agian, just place your trust in Christ. He has a plan for you, and for your life. The plan He has for you is an infallible and indisputable plan, and in spite of what you think, He can and He will make something great of your life. You may think, "I'm so small, i can't do anything, what would God want with me? He should choose Insert-Name-Here, hes got the worng person choosing me" Well, He did choose you, and no, He didn't make a mistake. He chose you because He loves you, and theres nothing He won't do to see you happy. If He chose to become human, to hang on a tree between heaven and earth, torn flesh hanging off his side, precious blood flowing freely as an expression of His passionate love for you, then whats giving you victory in your life, in your studies, in your finances? What is healing to the One who would let the hands which flung the stars into the farthest reaches of the universe be pierced by the crude iron bolts fashioned by the hands of men? Your victory today is as assured as the day He hung on the cross.

It may be that all your life, youv'e been a failure, an outcast, an untouchable in society, but don't let that rob you of your victory. The woman with an issue of blood for 12 years, was a social reject, labeled as unclean and shunned by all of society. No one would even sit where she had sat before, no one would share a table to her, no one would even want to touch her. In spite of being an outcast for 12 years, she pressed through a huge crowd just to touch Jesus. Imagine if she had given up when everyone started shouting at her, shouting "unclean!Unclean!", as they had done for the past 12 years. Imagine if, in fear of being stoned, she had turned aside and slunk back to her pained existence, always regretting not pressing through to Jesus... But she did. She pressed through the crowd, and she received her victory.

Don't be afraid to trust God.
"What if i still fail?"
"What if God dissapoints me?"
"What if everyone just laughs at me"
Heres a question back at you: What if you don't? What if He doesn't?(He won't, thats for sure) What if your'e right?
You won't fail again, just trust God. What have you got to lose? Nothing. What have you got to gain? Everything. Your life is too important For you to leave your future to the events in your past.

Forget your past. What happened, happened. You cant change the past, But God can give you a future. Trust God, and you will not be dissapointed, for we do not serve a God that will break His promises, and He promised you that that He will bless you with all good things.
Don't worry about yesterday, don't worry bout tommorow. Yesterdays gone, tommorows settled. Its Settled by God, because He has paid for it, and He has overpaid. All that you will never be in want, not just never in need, never in want.

Whats the difference? you need a car. You want a Ferrari. Thats the difference. Ah.

You are blessed, and your future is as assured as the righteousness that God has placed in you, which is as secure as Christs place at the right hand of God. We are aquitted, vindicated, not as criminals pardoned, but as men who have never sinned, for such is tha nature if Gods rigtheousness.

Thats right. If you believe that Christ is your saviour, and that you are a son of Righteousness, it is as if you have never sinned. You know and i know that we still do stuff which seems wrong, but to God, it never happened.

We say to God "oh man, i cant beleive i just did that" God says "Did what?"

Jesus Loves you, so live assured of the good things that are coming in your life...

2005-02-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

Ive been really busy as of late, so i havent really had the time to post much, but i guess it doesnt really matter. I realize now that for a while, I seemed to have for gotten what really matters in life, what i really needed to prioritize. With the work that came in, it seems that i prioritized that work over my own personal time with God, thinking that it had to be done etc. What i have come to realize is that no matter how much you work, there will always be work. The more you do, the more you have to do. I found that the more i did, the less came out, the less time i had, and the lower the quality of the work that i had. The key is to say that none of these things move me, to be as solid as Christ because of what He has done. No matter what the conditions in this world, know that these are temporary, and that the promise of God is eternal. We can be solid and immovable not because of our upbringing, our will or whatever, but because of the solid Rock who is within us. When you compromise and bow to your circumstances, they stay, acknowleding your problems doesnt make them go away. Its when you refuse to bow before all the circumstances because you know that the truth of God says you are more than a conquerer, because your victory is as assured as the death and resurrection of Christ that the truth of God manifests in your life. There can be only one truth in the world, and that truth is the truth of Christ. your circumstances may seem all consuming, an insurmountable mountain in the path of your life, but let me say this, that that mountain has already been removed by Christ.
No matter how big the mountain, how deep the sea, how long the journey, no matter what happens, Everythings gonna turn out allright. All the people out there, they have no right to say that, but we as children of God have the right to say that in the full knowledge that God has been to your future and made everythign alright.
It doesnt matter if youve screwed up a test, said something you shouldnt have, hurt someone you never meant to, or wasted so much time on something you never wanted to do. God can change what already is, he can heal hurt relationships, and he can restore time much more than what was lost. What ever your need, God is there to meet it, because not only can He do it, He wants to. He wants to heal you more than you want to be healed. He wants to bless you more than you want to be blessed, and he wants ot love you much more than you want to be loved. He knows the thoughts you hold in your heart, and in spite of that, He still loves you. He loves you no matter what youve done, what youve said, what youve become. He still loves you, even when you turn your back on Him, He still loves you even when you ran from Him. He loves you because you are His beloved Child. He loved you before the world began, and he will never leave you.
Look at the sky, the endless blue sky, as wide as it is, it isnt as wide as His love for you. You know why the sky is blue? Because blue is the color of grace, and He wants to remind us of His grace where ever we go. Life is beautiful, not because of where you are or who youve made yourself to be, and not because of what you do or who you know, but because Jesus loves you. Because you are Gods Child, The world is always beautiful, and the truth of God triumphs over the lies of your circumstances.
To be a child of God is the ultimate blessing of all, because as many as are the sons of God are gods. It may sound really hard to believe, but man was made as gods over this world, with perfect authority just as God has. Adam lost that authority to satan, but Christ has won back that authority and now if you speak anything by the name of Christ it is done, For He has perfect authority over heaven and earth. As Christ is, so are we. Jesus himself said have i not called you gods? and the pharisees were angered by Christ because He called himself the Son of God, thus making himself equal to God. Live in the knowledge of who you are, and settle for yourself the question of "Who are you?". This is my answer: "I am the beloved son of God, in whom He is well pleased."

If youve read this, Kudos to you, you must be really bored to have found this post after months of inactivity. Jesus loves you...

2005-01-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

you know, 2004 was a really amazing year, and for myself it really was the year of a thousand times more. I am at now so much more than I was before, having been given great grace this past year, for i know that all that was given was not given because of anything else than the undeserved favour of God. I am glad for last year, but now a new year has begun, and it is Gods promise that whatever good there was in the year of 2004, this year He is going to give you much more. Be ready, for this is the year of the favour of God on your life. It is a year of favour, of blessing, and of acceleration in the Holy Spirit. There is a special annointing on the year to come, be ready for it... This is a year of material blessings, not just spiritual blessings. Do not be afraid to believe for the things you desire, for God will give you the desires of your heart. He is not a stingy God, dont ask as though He is. My God is an good God, and a very rich one at that. look for ward to the year...

2004-11-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yay!camp is coming up!only a few more days...you know, camp is really the most special time of the year to me, because i know thatcamp is a place that no one goes out the same way he came in, and it never fails to amaze me what God does in Camp. And this next camp is special, more so than the others, and thats saying quite a bit. I can say with all confidence thatt the camp is going to be the best camp Teenzeal will ever have, and i sense such an expectation, such an anticiation, such a power around the camp. I really expect to be amazed at this camp, amazed at What God will do, what God has already done. If you read this, dont go to camp without first expecting great things. Dont be afraid to trust God, dont be fearful of hope, lest you get disappointed. Hope in God is not dissapointed, but much more fufilled.Go to camp expecting much more than that what you desire, for much more than what you expect will be provided.you can only receive to the extent that you are willing to receive.in any case, this camp is going to be a mark in the lives of many, and its going to be a tie of calling, a time of destiny. Wow, really cant wait man...

2004-10-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

hmm...I finally realised what the typology and the images in leviticus 14 mean...
The OT has the Torah, which is the books written by moses, and are also known as the books of the law. Interestingly, there are 5 books in it. 5=grace. Center of torah is leviticus which has 27 chpters, a picture of the gospel. NT has 27 books. chp 14, is the center, double perfection, cos 7x2.
ok hers whre the interesting part begins. The 14th chapter of leviticus is about the center of the gospel, its what the gospel is about. the 14th chpt is about the cleansing of the leper, leprosy being a picture of sin, which means that what the gospel is all about is that we have been made righteous by Christ. Not only that but when the leper goes to the priest, the priest takes the blood of an animal(pic of christ) and applies it to the right thumb right ear and right toe of the leper. There are two other parrellels to this in the bible. When a slave is set free, and he chooses to stay and serve his master, he takes the blood and applies it to his thumb ear toe. This means that once we are cleansed from sin by the blood of Christ, we are no longer servants of God by obligation but by choice. We do not have to, but we want to. Also, Once we are covered with the blood, we have the hearing of God (ear), we have the works of God(thumb), and we have the walk of God (toe). Another parellel is the high priest will annoint the smaller priest in the same fashion, which means that we who were once sinners are now priests by the Blood.
Amazing huh? I love this stuff... Know that you are blessed, and your forgiveness is irrevokable, you are forever forgive, for you are washed by the blood of God...

2004-10-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

Dont give up, no matter what. All things work together for the good of those who love Him. Remember that not all things are good, but in the end, its gonna be a beautiful sunset. I know you are going through some tough times, and you dont even know where you will be, or even who you will be, a few months down the road. Even though you dont know whats going to happen, dont be afraid, cos it is good. it is not going to be good, it already is good. God is not mortal that He is bound by time, He is your future, and He is good. He loves you too much to watch you fail, to watch you suffer, and if only you knew how much He really loves you... I do not profess to know, for i know that i dont know. His love is so amazing, so wonder ful, so huge that i do not see nor do i comprehend even a fraction of His love for me. What i can say is this, your troubles may seem so big , so impossible, and He knows that they seem that way to you. Give your problems to him, and stop worrying about what has already been taken care of. You do not worry when you deposit money in the bank, in fact, you feel safer. You have jyust handed over your money to a complete stranger and you dont know what he/shes gonna do with it, yet you feel secure. How much more should you be secure in the knowledge of His victory in your life when you ask Him to save you, when He has been with you since before you were born, when he has known you by name before the birth of the world, when He loved you so much that he gave everything he could everpossibly give for you and died just for you?
Stop wondering about what others think, and i say this also to myself, and start realising that the onl;y one who really matters is God. People are fickle, and their minds shift as the desert sands, it profits you nothing to pander to their views of you. in stead, simply trust God for the favour and grace on your life, to such a point where you no longe r care what people think bout you, yet people cannot help but like you.
Grace is our qualification, and is our only qualification. you cannot have grace and works at the same time, for they are antithetical. Works is by nature opposite from grace. Grace is completely unmerited favour, which means that if you merit it, it no longer exists. We do not deserve, yet we receive. We do not study, yet we do well. But because we do well, we study.
I know many who have studied so hard yet done so badly, worked so hard yet fallen so far. When you depend fully on His grace, you cannot help but do well, and you will see the victories exploding in your life one by one.Then once you have the victory, you are given the desire.

For my own life(Dont try this, you are not me, you are you and you have your own path. God has prepared a different path for you, dont just go by wat others tell you, go by what God tells you.), b4 o's i never studied, i was an idiot, i was quite dumb etc. I never liked to think myself as a loser, but the sad truth was(now that i look at it), i was. I am perfect now, because i am in the perfection of Christ. By right, and by the ways of this world, i should have failed my os or something. I didnt. I was give an insanely good score for my os, which i knew for sure i could never get for myself based on what i actually wrote in the exam, or based on what i knew. After the exam was when i began to have the desire to work hard(amen) and to study. I dont know why but i started to have a desire to learn. this happened after the victoy.

There are many interesting stories in my life, and the sad thing is i cant remember a lot of it. im dont think thats too much of a bad thing though, means i dont hold grudges, not even against myself, and i Praise God that i am who i am and i am made the way i am made. I never dwell on past mistakes.

oh and i found something interesting about my birthday and all that
born on 16 03 86
16+3=19
16x3=48
interesting, 1948 was the year israel gained independence
86, 8x6=48
, also, if you add up all the individual no.s, ull get 24, which is a symbol of priest hood
interesting huh?
Praise God, i know for sure i am going to israel, when is the only question i have to ask. I am destined to go to that land, and already i have been promised by God that i will go.

ou gar epaheeskhoonomahee ho evangelion, dunamis gar Theos imee ice sohtayrhea pas pistyuo.

2004-09-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

I am not ashamed of the Gospel, for it is the power of God unto salvation for all who believe.(Romans 1:16)

Thats the theme verse for this years Camp, and this years camp name is Evangelion, which is in greek the gospel. Praise God man, really excited for camp, cos i know for sure something amazing is going to happen this year. I fully expect the goodness and grace of God to manifest itself at camp. I can expect this cos i know that God is good, and very good at that.

Evangelion is derived form the greek word evangel, which means the good news, which is also the root word for the words evangelis and evangelist, and the word Leon, which means light. It is literally the good news of the light. Jesus Said, I am the way the truth and the light...

Jesus is the Gospel, because it is the Gospel is the good news of Christ. What is the Gospel then? Simply Said, that Christ Jesus, Gods only Son, Came down to earth to die on the cross for the sins of man and was raised on the third day after conquering Sin, Death, and the devil. Now, all who believe the simplicity of the gospel which is the permanent cleansing of sins by the Grace of God, are saved.

Therefore, we are not ashamed of it for we were saved by it, for through no other means is a man saved. We who are persuaded of the power of this act now reign as sons of God and are made equal to God. In John 10:34, "Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?" Here, he quotes from psalms 82:6 "I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High". Notice that those who are the children of God are also called gods? For we are Children of God and as such are made in His image.
When you are aware of your identity as a child of God, so also will you begin to walk in the Power of God, being as the representative of God in this world. We ourselves have no power nor ability, it is the Power of God that works through and for us. Walk in the knowledge of who your Father is, and i assure you, you will not walk in defeat, you will live in victory, the Victory that Christ has won for you. We are victors because he is our Victor.

We who believe, our belief is subject to the vagaries of the self, and so how much faith we have wavers from time to time. However, dun be dicouraged if that happens. If you think that you have to have faith have faith, have faith, then faith has become works to you. Faith is the natural response to His Goodness and Grace, dun focus on it, Focus on christ, who is the author and finisher of our faith. Also, Paul says " the righteous shall live by faith", which he quoted from habakuk 2:4, which says" The Righteous shall Live by His Faith". it has nothing ot do with us. We who are righteous by the blood of Christ, by His finished work, We live by faith, but not y our own faith. We live by His Faith. Such is the goodness of Gods grace that the only part that is for us to do is actually for Him to do. The walk is easy, dun be decieved to think that the Christian walk is hard. its not. its impossible. Thats why its not even us who walks it. We who Have first been saved by Christ, are now made to walk by Christ, and to Live by Christ, and to Triumph By Christ. The only part believers have to play was already finished and completed when we first received Christ. Now all we have to do is nothing. Learn to know that it is not your battle, you have no part to play, and just let Him take over. Life is easy, for God is good...

Look forward to Camp, its really gonna be good.... 72053

2004-09-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

Man, its that time of the year again...Its the time of the year where Orchard gets just a little bit emptier, Mcdonalds island wide get more than just a little bit more crowded, and minds get quite alot more crammed... its exam season again(not for me though:) Any way, i jus have one thing to say: God is a good God, and nothing is going to change that. he is faith ful, and He will keep His promise to you no matter what, and nothing anyone does can ever change that.If you think that just cos you didnt study, you cant do will, you are seriously wrong. The truth of God Word, which is that you already have the victory, is not going to change just because it is not consistent with your truth. To say that because you didnt study means that you cant do well is totally true, because its not you thats takin the exams or fighting your battles. Jesus has already fought your battles and won them, all you have to do is enjoy. The Truth of God changes your circumstance, Just believe, For gd thing s are headed your way, so be filled with the certain expectation of the gd things to come.just rest and enjoy...dun fight for your grades, just rest...Look to Jesus, and everything else fades to grey...Dun kanchong k? Life is gd.. any one can rejoice once they see the victory, but it takes faith to rejoice before you see it, so rejoice now people, and receive ur victory!

Just watched open waters: Review
upon ten, id rate this show about negative six thousand six hundred and twenty three.Its the most disgusting piece of slipshod trash ive ever seen, im sorry if i sound really harsh on it and all, but i really must stress the importance of not ever in your entire life watching this boring somniferous horrible piece of capitalist waste. Just dun do it, not even to see how horrible it can get. go watch grass grow, watch the hair start to sprout on bald mens heads, do anything but watch this show...3/4 of the film their in the water, and 3/4 of that time theri doing nothing in the water, just floating arnd and complaining about each other.about 5 min you see a few torpid sahrks wallowing around in the water, lookin about as menacing as a metre tall midget armed with a rubber chicken. Right, so let me see, have i mentioned that you should never in your entire life watching this boring somniferous horrible piece of capitalist waste? I think i did,. oh well. Theres much better things to do than watch it really, like sit and stare at the wall for two hours counting how many cracks there are and carefuly cataloguing them all.

2004-07-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm, havent posted for a long time...seems its really in the times when i really have to do work where i post here...im just gona leave a short post then...hahahah
Ive realised that the christian walk so to speak is actually a very simple affair... its like living as a child, or atleast, with the thinking and attitude of a child with regards to God, which is the pure and simple trust in God. When we come like children, we are no longer aware of ourselves, but more aware of the greatness of our Father. Achild does not even notice the things that are thrown his way, all he knows is the warm embrace of the father. When we have faith like a child, we are no longer trying to have faith to believe for what we need, to us it is simply like an established fact, and we no more doubt the goodness or the willingness of God to bless us than we doubt that the sun will rise tomorrow. to them that have that kind of faith, its simply an established fact. Of course i know its not as simple as just saying "i believe" and believeing, there are times we are so dependent on faith that we think that if we do not believe, we will not receive waht we ask for, so we eke out every single last ounce of willpower and try to force ourselves to believe. Faith doesnt work that way, and neither does grace. We receive faith by grace and grace by faith, and the easiest way to have faith is to first know that you cant. We on our own, there are somethings no matter how much we try we cannot believe. the first step i believe is to know that you cant. God alwways works this way. it is in those that are undeserving that he manifests His glory and power and whom he calls. Of course, every one is undeserving, but it is to those who know it that can receive these things. No one deserves, whether they like it or not, whether they try to or not. I think its really absolutely beautiful: The verything which disqualifies us in a meritocratic world is hte very thing which qualifies us in the eyes of God. Other people bring impressive resumes of acheivements, of degrees, of experience, but we bring to God our failures, our weaknesses, our fears. And in the end, we are the ones who succeed, we are the ones who are blessed. We do not live in a fair world, lets face it, no matter how much one battles for equality, in this world, it just isnt goin to happen. And im acyually happy for that. i am perfectly happy with the unfairness of it all, cos Jesus took all my sin, all my pain, all my far, all my disease, and i got all His everything. How much more unfair can it get? . In any case. Back to the point. it doesnt matter if you cant believe cos simply said, its not you. if you think that your lack of faith will somehow disqualify you from the blessings, it means that you think that it has something to do with oyu, but it doesnt. Gos is the one who is in charge, not you. He is faithful no mater what happens. Nothing you do disqualifies you from the blessing, cos you have been made righteeuos by Jesus Christ the Son Of GOd, who is God, and nothings gonna change that. Like wise, ni thing you dun do will disqualify you. For you are in a contract where the only part for you to fufill is to enjoy. Even in the midst of all your trouble, believe in the goodness of your God and Father, and relax. Everythings gonna be alright.

New Post, same heading..look near the leviticus part

2004-07-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hey there all, been really a long time since i last posted... you know, The greatest things of God are also the simplest. Its easy to search for the hidden truths in the bible so much so that we forget the most fundamental of truths that we were saved by.Above all things, Love. Im not talking bout the sickly himan stuff that the world keeps looking for, thats just a shadow, a poor imitation to the Love of Christ for you. Most definitely I say this now, that apart from Christ, there is nothing. Everything the world has is just a shadow, a fleeting nightmare which it doesnt know it is living. There is no fufillment, no pleasure, no life, no future without Christ. Whithout Christ, nothing means anything and everything means nothing. We have what the world can never give, and so often its so easy to forget what a tremendous thing it is that was done for us.

Thats why right here, right now, I just want to Say one thing. Thank you Jesus. Thank you for Dieing for me. You didnt have to, but you chose to. From the begining you already knew the end, and having the power to change it, chose to do nothing. Thank you Lord, for each and every stripe you bore on your back, each and everyone for me, for my sickness, for my pain, for my disease... I see your wounds, your gaping wounds, the blood that drips from your side, and I know that it was all for me. By Your stripes, I am healed...What a price to pay Lord, Thank you. Thank you for dieng on the Cross Jesus, bearing all my Sin, all my pain, all my suffering, all my sorrow, Thannk you, for you bore it all...And i know that you did it all for me....Without You, id be lost, so Thank you Lord...

You know, recently heard about a teaching called the oneness teaching, which basically say that there is no trinity in God, its Just Jesus. In any case, jus wana explain a bit about what i believe is the nature of God. God is three yet one, Every part of the Trinity is the whole of the Trinity, being the fullness of God in each. But as yet, each is seperate, and not the same one. They do not add up to be God, each is, sperately, the whole of God. This is especially manifest in the newtestament, with God the Father seated on the throne, the Son at the Right hand, and Holy spirit in us.

Something interesting i found...New testament=27 books, 27 is the number of the preaching of the Gospel. Leviticus=27 chptrs, means theres some amazing truths in there.
Leviticus 14, center of leviticus, is about the Cleansing of the leper, a picture of Jesus(Pastor preach about it before) It is the sign of the messiah, cos only the messiah could heal lepers. also, 14 reperesents deliverance and salvation, and double perfection. Go figure. Jesus Christ is the messiah, whom the Gospel is about, and He is our deliverance and Salvation, Who has cleansed us of Leprosy(pictuire of Sin).
I love the hidden stuff in the bible, so exciting...
Anyway, there will def be more on numbers and meanings etc here, might not be as regular in posting as before, since schools started...
In any case, new stuff here.. This is what i realise about the Leviticus thing. What it means is that the very center of the preaching of the Gospel ,the core of the good news is this: That Jesus has cleansed us from Sin, and that now we are the Righteousness of God. It is the central truth to the gospel, that if nothing else be known of the Gospel of Christ, let it be known that Jesus Died to cleanse the sinners of this world that they may be Saints. Hallelujah....

Word of the Post:Juxtapose, to place side byside for reason of comparison or contrast.
Good word to use "the juxtaposition of the colors painted a vivid picture..."

2004-06-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

you know, recently ive started to follow what pastor talked about, and ive started praying in tongues alot more, ive been praying while walking, while bathing, while on the bus, in my room, on the train etc... and ive found that its really such a tremendous thing...as i continue to pray i realise than my spirit is being more and more sensitized to the voice of God, and i can hear him speaking to me so much more. Of course, He says its not that Hes talking to me, its that Ive finaly learnt to listen.

You know, Many fight against the flesh and stuggle against the temptation of the flesh, but do not realise that it is no longer our battle, for the battle aginst sin, against temptation was won by Jesus Christ, who by His perfect obedience and sacrifice at the Cross has freed us from Law, from Sin, From sickness, From death. Now, We are free. There is no more Fight against temptation, there is no more fight against the flesh. The Spirit already dominates the flesh. To tell the truth, i know not the Words to say what ive been shown... How Can i Say what I mean except from what Ive experienced? What I can say is that one day i just suddenly realised that that which i have struggled with for so long had no power over me, and that i dont need it, nd it was just a lie from the devil that it was only human to fall to such a thing. I realise that it never had power over me, I was the one who gave it power over me. Dont struggle against Sin any more, simply realise that it has no hold on you , it has no more power over you. If your one of those who always say that its in your nature, you cannot help but (insert Misc. Action here), im sorry, im about to invalidate your excuse...

You are no longer human as you think you are, for your nature was changed when you accepted Christ into your heart. You passed from death into Life, and from life into death. Your spirit was once dead to Christ but now lives, and your flesh was once alive, but is now dead, for it was Cruxified with Christ. Your Sin nature, the inherent nature in Man which compels him to do evil died at Calvary. Your nature has changed, you are now Holy, Holy by the Blood of Christ. Sin has no longer any power over you. You are Free...Its whether you know it or not...

There was once a lion in a small cage, and the lion could only walk two steps back and forwards. it was kept in the cage for many years, and subsequently it was set free. However, the lion,even without its cage, could only walk two steps forward, and two steps back. So used was it to being in captivity that though it was physically free, it was caged in its mind.

Love has set us free, realize it, believe it, and i know you will see it. My God has never dissapointed me, He's not gonna start with you. You are already blessed, start living it....

In any case, even saying all this, it benefits you nothing just knowing it, for it is not the knowledge in the mind that sets us Free, it is the truth in our hearts, the truth of the spirit. It is the revelation that you are free taht will allow you to walk as one free, for it is not enough to know that you are free, you must Know that you are free...revelation is something which only the Spirit can give, and be assured that if you ask, you shall receive, cos thats the kind of God that we have...

Obfuscate: To conceal something or to make it blur ( the truth was obfuscated by the ocean of lies)

2004-06-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

Many wonder why people cut themselves and mutilate their body, or have multiple piercings...I do not profess that i understand what they go through, or that i know the rationale behind their behaviour. All i'm doing is putting forth a theory. Feel free to dispute it, because it is only a theory, its meant to be argued...

The reason behind masochism and sadism is, i believe, in part due to emotional pain in the person. The pain on the inside is so great that it eats them up inside...thus they turn to physical pain, because the physical pain distracts them from the emotional and spiritual pain. Its like having an itch, it compels you to inflict pain on yourself in order for you to obtain release...

Another reason might be because of guilt in the person, for some thing which they think to be unpardonable or whatever, whereupon they feel the need to punish themselves because no one else will...The human mind expects punishment for its actions, and thus when there is no external force to execute "justice", it will seek to punish itself, through the infliction of physical pain, Self deprevation, or emotional damage.

Mainly i believe that the distraction from emotional pain is what drives most....

any way, thats it for one of my weird theories, cos i have nothing better to do and i think too much....

Execrate: To hate, to abhor, to detest...

2004-06-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey, somewhat bored so im just putting this here, most have probably seen it already, but for those who havent, here we go:

A single forlorn figure trudged through the once magnificent orchard, now made bare by the brumal winds. A single leaf trembled on the near naked branches of the gargantuan oak tree that stood erect in the centre of the garden. The figure wore a shimmering cloak of crimson, and was clothed in the finest silks money could buy. He was the king of the land, famed far and wide for his clemency and honour. His kingdom was unrivalled, and none dared to challenge him. He was a tall sanguine man, with long flowing hair the color of gold. He was altruistic in nature, with an ebullient and gregarious personality. He had all that his heart desired. Yet… there was a great longing within him, a widening chasm that was devouring his soul. There was no queen for his kingdom, no love for his life.
As the gelid winter night set in, and wintry winds howled, he set off towards his chambers. He would set off the next day on an annual pilgrimage across the land to the tropical beach where his parents remains lay, to pay his respects and, perhaps, find love to fill his heart.
Even as the crimson sun rose over the edge of the world, the king was mounting his fine white stallion. He had to travel incognito through towns and villages, lest they encumber him with their petty grievances. After all, there were such things as magistrates. Although it took him almost a month of wearisome riding, it was well worth it. The pale golden beach shimmered softly in the gentle breeze, and the crystal clear sea scintillated in the effulgence of the candent sun. The best part was, however, that the epitome of beauty itself was strolling down the beach, enjoying the beauty of nature that could no compare to hers. The miasma of grief and sadness lifted off the king, and his clear brown eyes regained their youthful sparkle
To say that she was beautiful would be a crass understatement. She had silken brown hair which shimmered in the lambent light of the setting sun, and seemed imbued with a life of its own whenever the wind blew.. Her sanguine complexion melded perfectly with the blood-tinged light that radiated from the crimson globe that hung heavily in the sky. She wore a long flowing linen dress that was white as snow, and a falcate hairpin adorned with coruscating gems. He made up his mind and approached her with purpose in his stride. He told her that he had fallen for her, and that he needed her to complete him, his kingdom, and to make him truly successful. She reeled from his tactless declaration of love, and was alienated by his sudden imposal on her life. But as she looked at him, she realised that he was quite handsome, and, of course, excessively wealthy.
She told him that she would consider, and proceeded to tell her entire village. Everyone said that she should marry him, and also something along the lines of, “Don’t forget your old insert-name-here, and remember to send me some cash!”. Except for her old sweetheart, that is, who was vehemently against it. But who cared about him? He was not rich. They ended up locking him up while the two got married to prevent him from performing some “heroic” rescue and running off with the bride.
The two walked down the plush red aisle to the cheers of hundreds, and with much aplomb, he slipped an ostentasious over-sized ring on her finger, for the same reason as dogs pee on lamp-posts. Their vows were said, and thus, they were made man and wife. The two lived a perfect life… well,almost perfect. As for her original love, he died a mysterious death, and local authorities assured all who wanted to know that he had commited suicide by stabbing himself in the back as his one and only love had been recently abducted by little green men in flying saucers.

there we go... everyone hates the ending, i dunno y... personally, i loved it:) esp cos its so stupid...

Any way, seems i havent done this for quite a while...

Word of the Post: Gelid: it simply means cold, one of my favourite words for cold
E.g, Gelid winter, gelid night.

for those taking o's this year:

2004-06-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

in life, there are many times when it seems like u cant go any lower, when it seems like ur not going to make it, when you seem to be surrounded by darkness and there isnt any hope left...I know that it seems tough. I know how it feels to have what could be the biggest exam of your life looming ahead. I know the fear, the uncertainty, the pressure, the pain, cos ive been through it before, cos everyone has to go through it.
Dont be discouraged, and dont lose hope, because with God all things are possible. Do not be afraid. instead, put your trust in Him. I can safely say that If i have trusted Him, i have never been let down, for my God is not a God that fails. He is a God of His word, and if He has promised something, He will surely do it. You may think that that might not work cos you dont have enough faith or something like that, but believe me, its not your faith that causes miracles to happen, its His faithfulness. Our God is a faithful God, just rest in His love... If you think that studying will help you do well for ur exams, your wrong. You're very wrong. I know people who studied twice as hard as me who did worse(its not very hard to study twice as hard as me, jus read ur text for 5 pages or something) than me. The key to success is to rest in His love, and in the finished work of Christ... rest in the certain knowledge that the work is finished, that your results are already blessed. This is not your battle, its your victory. rest, and know that He is God. Miracles happen. I know, because miracles happened to me. By my mind i knew success to be an imposibility, but yet i held on to hope, the certain expectation of good in Christ. I know that im not that smart , that hardworking, that good as to deserve what i got. I got half of waht some of my peers got, i got 10 points. I know its nothing to some, but its really something forme... I never studied, me being the amazing procrastinator that I was...The way i studied physics was to play pool, The only thing i did was to hang out with friends etc... I know that by right i should have failed, but i didnt. By His mercy and Grace i passed... The most amazing was still SS. I knew nothing bout it, i din even know there was a sec 3 text, and i was a constant failure, all the way until o's....i honestly thought that i was going to fail...In the end, i got an A1. Till this day, i still marvel at the goodness of God...
It really has nothing to do with you you know, it has everything to do with Jesus. All i did was believe that it was His battle, and there was no way id do badly...in the end, the only three subj. that i din do well in were those which i trusted myaself to do well in, and those so bad that i din even noe how to write my name for(chinese). The best thing to do is to pursue God, to seek to know more of His love and to rest in the Revelation of his love for you... if you seek wisdom from God, Praise Him, thank Him for it, For the begining of wisdom is the reverential worship of the Lord.

Am i saying that you should not study then? Hardly so. All im saying is this: Do not trust yourself. You yourself know how weak you are. Knowing this, how can you trust yourself? Trust in God, For He has bought the victory for you. Study, and spare yourself from the agony of doubt and unbelief. If you think that you have such faith that you can walk into the exam hall knowing nothing, writing giberish and coming out with the certain knowledge in your head and your heart that you will do well, then by all means, do it! But you yourself know that your faith is not yet perfect, that if you walk in that way, you will fail. With that certainty in your heart, how can you believe God? Rather, excercise wisdom and discernment and study for your own sake, and trust God for the Grace to study, and God will multiply your time and give you supernatural recall... It works the same way as divine health and healing. To have a miracle is like divine healing, it doesnt happen to everyone, and you actually have to sufer from the disease, whereas having studied and doing well by His grace is like divine health, never facing the agony of the disease, which in this case is the agony you face before the results come up. Simply said, The spirit leads each differently, but is never wrong. Follow the spirit and His guidance, and youll not go worng....

Grace and Peace be multiplied to you, and may you be filled with the revelation of Christs love for you. You are already blessed, and your results are already blessed. Simply believe, and believe simply...

O's is a path that looks alot darker from one side than the other, guess which side your on now? dont worry too much, cos the o's are like the shadow of a cat on a wall, which seems like a lion. The fear of the thing is far greater thant the thing itself, there fore do not be afraid. Enjoy what you have now, cos after this, there aint no more secondary school for you, and you will only appreciate what it means to be in secondary school after its gone, so remember to take the time to stop and enjoy all that you've been given...

You are the Beloved of Christ...

2004-06-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Church Camp 2004!Woo hoo! It was really the best Church Camp I've ever been to! Of course, its also my only church camp thus far...in any case, apart from all the fun we I had, and all the really gd shopping (hurrah for malaysias languishing economy and disregard for intellectual property!), The most amazing thing about the camp was the really strong prescence of God there, and the amazing message. I know for sure im going to get the tapes..it really helped me see the benefit and power of praying in tongues...Id thought that I had believed, that id had Faith, just not the courage to speak it out. Id always thought that id had faith, just that i didnt dare yet to say what i believed. Im begining to see that id been really faithless, but i know that my God is a faithful God. During the camp, He said, "If you truly believed, Why are you afraid?Why are you afraid to speak what you know to be true? Dont you know I have promised you the victory, promised you the miracle? Stop thinking that you have the faith, that you have the power, because its myfaith, my power that will do these things." I realize now that the reason behind fear is unbelief. I know that my faith is little and can accomplish little, but His Faith is Great, and has accomplished all things. Therefore i will trust in His faith, and what little faith i have is that I cannot, but He can. For faith is no longer faith if it is trusted in, it becomes works, Trying by your own faith to make the miracle happen. We are to reach a point where we do not say because we believe, it will happen, but to say He has already done it for us, our part is simply to rest and believe that the work is finished.

Ok ,here comes a portion of ranting about malaysia and all its oddities...

Malaysia, to the casual observer walking blissfuly down its streets, seems somewhat in a constant state of anarchy. There is no system. If you want to get a cab, dont bother waiting in line, just prepare yourself for a bit of melee combat and rush madly for the first cab that stops(dont worry, you wont be alone. First one to get on wins!)

Never ever drink the tap water, unless youre looking for the ultimate cure to chronic constipation: Chronic Diarrhoea. If at first you cant start, drink their water. Then you cant stop...

Malaysian Flies are a rare breed, their so lazy you cant just wave them of your food, you actually have to flick them off. Theyre also really fat and humongous, they look more like small bees hovering really slowly making a valiant (albeit really really slow) attempt at your food.

Of Course, everyones favourite thing about Malaysia is its really low standard of Living, everyting(excpet stuff like electronics) is half Price! Hallelujah for langising economy! bought lots of really cheap stuff...gucci watch for 12 rm, shades for 16 rm (christian Diana) and nike sandals for 50. shirts at 15 rm each...really really cheap stuff....

in any case, Going to malaysia really made me appreciate Singapore so much more, cos it looks so much cleaner and better in every way than malaysia, Praise God For Singapore!
He is our Prosperity!

2004-06-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Operation Enhanted woods, Teenzeals very own survivor thing...Its been really most tiring, more so then camp, cos so much running arnd was crammed into the course of one day...Jus woke up after having slept about 8 hours since morning
very stoned... During the solo walk, got lots of creepy stuff like movin shadows and such, sound of footsteps when no ones there etc, but i couldnt really be bothered because i know that there is nothing out there which can touch me cos of the Spirit of God within me. I'm not afraid because I know He who is within me is far greater than he that is in the world, and whosoever seeks to do me harm will fail. No doubt, spirits exist, but i know that the only power that they have is the power of fear, and i am not afraid. For perfect love cast out fear. They are meerely shadows of what they appear to be, so do not be afraid of what lurks in the darkness, of what lies in the unknown because they are more afraid of He who is in you than you are afraid of them.

2004-05-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

You know, its reali wonderful being able to just spend time alone with God... Jus went to east coast alone on mon, and it was reali great... cycled out to carpark D, sat on a stone bench overlooking the sea, and just spent some time there worshiping and praying... I looked at the sea, and the infinite blue sky, and im just reminded of how great the Fathers love for me... As high as the heavens above, and wider than the widest sea....The minds of Man cannot begin to grasp the idea or the magnitude of infinity, and the sea, quantifiable even in its appearance of infinity, gives Man a severely toned down experience of the infinite. Already it stretches beyond what we can see, and already it is deeper than our minds can fanthom, how much more the infinite infinity of Gods love for us, that is far beyond comprehension. I was also reminded of the journey ahead of me, the journey of life... So long it seems from one end, so short from the other... It stretches over the horizon, beyond what I can see, and I ask the Lord, "Lord, Whats on the other side?" to which He said:
"You already know, cos i've already shown you and promised you. Do you believe?"
"Lord, I want to. I reali do. But I know that i am weak, and even this thing, this little thing, i cannot do. I have not the courage to believe as I should, but i trust in you. Let it not be my faith Lord, but yours."
"You will see the other side, you will walk on the soil of my promise, and all that I have shown you, I will surely do. Don't be afraid to step out and believe. The journey may seem long, and the destination so far away, but this I have promised you, I'll be with you every step of the way..."
Jesus loves you far more than you could ever know, far more than anyone will ever love you, even when youve been cast aside from society, when no one else will love you, He has always loved you... Never forget that, never lose sight of Jesus, never stray from the path He prepared...Even when you dont feel it, He still does. Love isnt a feeling, its a decision. A man loves because he wants to, not because he is compelled to by fickle emotions. What is love if it were here today and gone tomorrow? would it not then be infatuation, obsession, a degradatory perversion? Love perseveres. His love for you is eternal. He loves you today as much as the day He was nailed to the cross, as much as the time He spent in the garden, as much as when He first created Adam, as much as when He first said "Light Be"... Hes loved you since before the world began, and Hes waited 8000 years (some say this is when adam was created) for you, I know Hes not gonna stop Loving you now. No matter what the challenge, He's there for you, and He has already over come it... stop seeing the past, and start living the future. The old has passed away, and all things have been made new. There would be no new if there was no fault with the old, for a man does not replace the old unless the replacement is better than the old. Therefore, you yourself must know your new identity, which is the identity of Christ. We were meant to be all that Jesus is, for as He is so are we. We have shed our old identity as sinners and taken up His identity as a Saint. If there fore we are Saints, start acting like it and you will see it. I am by no means saying that we should try to live holy, try to obey the law. Rather, i am saying that Speak as though you were righteous(which you are), act as though you have a heavenly Father who looks after you and dotes on you(which He does,i f youll let Him), and stop being so stressed, so afraid, so sad, so angry. Stop seeing whats wrong, and start believing whats right. And you know what? youll start to see the obedience that comes from already knowing that you are forgiven. For if Grace were to justify Man by Mans part, it would be no different from the Law. Rather, Grace Justifies Man based on Christs obedience, and the only thing that qualifies Man is his own admittance of his undeservednes and his need for the finished work of Christ. In any case, i think i've gone on a bit long, so il just say this: Jesus Loves you. Its the most powerful truth you'll ever know. You are blessed...

2004-05-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

hmm, jus watched 50 first dates...really liked the show, thought it was reali funny and reali sweet...as with all shows of this nature, it sort of caused my mind to stray in the general direction of girls, relationships etc. (for which i am most definitely not ready). in any case, i asked the Lord this question: Who is the perfect one for me? I was quite amazed when He replied... He said this: Whomever you choose, I will make her perfect...Hahaha, i really love My God...In any case, what i've come to realise is that we have to be constantly reminded of the love of Christ for us, for we are quick to forget His goodness to us. It is important that each and everyday we are constantly reminded of this Love...
In any case, I know how short my hols are, thats why i've asked the Lord to expand my time and multiply it, and i've seen Him do it so much in the last week...I can feel time flowing differently, and each day is filled with so much more than before...I love my God, cos my God first loved me...

2004-05-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'll, how ya all doin now? Whatever.. in any case, ive uploaded the vocab list for this year(1st ver) on to my yahoo groups, links on the left. if you want to increase vocab, thts the place to look. its the really cheem stuff which people dun normaly use, but they're all good solid words, really useful and somewhat poetic sounding(some, not all).

2004-05-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

You know what i've come to realise? i actually update this thing more when i have work to do... now that im on holiday (YAY) i sort of neglect it a bit... not that i dont have much to say, far from it, ive got loads of stuff to say...Do most pple actually do the same? as in do all these weird useless things they wouldnt normally do during exams? I dont know... In any case, all you righteous ones out there, wana say this: You are successful not because of what you have acheived but because of who it is that is in you. Whether or not you see the outward manifestation of the success, you already have it. Rest in the knowledge of that victory, rather than try to acheive it. Stop trying to be who you already are, stop trying to get what you already have. The victory is already urs, it has already been given, so stop acting as if you did not have it and stop working for it. It has been freely given to you... Don't worry if you dont see it yet, because i know that our God is not a God that disappoints. If you trust Him, He will never dissapoint you... You know you have a Father who loves you and cares for you, its time you started acting like it.
you are His beloved Child, and there is nothing He wont do to see the smile on ur face... He will not withold any of His amazing blessings from you, all you have to do is ask and believe. Faith works by love, if you know how much He really loves you you will by no means doubt His blessing. There fore seek to grow in the revelation of Gods love, which is revealed in the sacrifice of Christ. For in the death of christ is revealed the love of the Father, for no man knows the Father except through the Son.

In any case, i Saw this interesting thing in the Psalms the other day, and thought it was really interesting.

Psalms 22 talks about the cruxifiction and the death of Christ, which is the end of His life. The Hebrew alphabet has 22 letters, the first being Aleph, and the 22nd , the last, being Tav. Jesus Said i am the beggining and the end, the Aleph and the Tav: most translations say alpha and omega, cos thats greek.
Thus, i find it interesting that the death of Jesus is portrayed in the 22nd psalm, which is the Tav.

2004-05-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

2004-04-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

HallelujAH!!!!Praise Jesus, i search is over, and theyve found I!what ever... reali tired now, so im not reali going to say much besides this: Let the love of God surround you and be lost in His love, and all other things shall fade away... in any circumstance, the Love of God is the thing that will set you free... Keep your eyes on Jesus... in any case, im too tired to write on, il post another time, cos im too tired nw...
Word of the Post: Emancipate: To set free. E.g, After being subjugated to no end, i Have finally been emancipated from the tyranny of I-search! or an emancipated indvidual, the glory of emancipation etc.

2004-04-27T14:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha,just have to put this down before i forget it... How does Jesus like His steak done?
Well done. Cos when the waiter asks Him how He likes His steak, He says "Well done, my good and faithful servant." hahaha....right...
Word of the Post: gelid: Cold, usually sued to describe weather, atmospere etc. I dun think its used like a gelid istare or a gelid spoon or what ever. E.g, it was a gelid night, and the brumal winds howled incessantly out side the the warmth of the cabin.

2004-04-26T17:07:00.000+08:00

Life is good...only one more project to go and I'm free!yay...Which is more important?freedom or happiness?id def. say happiness....freedom has a price, a very high price, and i cant help but wonder, is it really worth it?
I believe that happiness is more imp. by far...What is freedom without Joy? It is in vain, and is far worse than joy without freedom. America is the "land of the free", but for the most part its the freedom to die, freedom to starve, the freedom to be poor, the freedom for crime... i definitely prefer Singapore, with its non-existent right of free-speech, its thousand and one laws which usually are never used, its quaint little streets and its tight lipped people. Freedom is where you find it, Joy is a decision, and its ur decision. Only you can decide to be happy, no one else can make that decision for you.
Only 4 have the power of free choice in this world, God and man(god being three parts). Free choice is powerful, very powerful. You are who you choose to be, and you are who you say you are. remember that. You dont have to live according to your circumstances and you dont have to be who you see yourself as. You are not who you are. You are who Jesus is. Dont blindly accept everything thats thrown at you, thinking that its Gods will and theres nothing you can do about it. If you dont like it, dont accept it.There was a king in the Bible, and God sent a prophet to him, saying that he had only a short while to leave. When the prophet had left, the king cried out to God, asking for mercy, and immediqately God told the prophet to turn around and go back in to tell the king he had been given 15 more years to live. Your circumstances are not absolute but God's word is. In life, know this: You can be anything you want to be, you can acheive anything you want to thru Christ, Because that is His promise to you. In the end, the choice is still up to you. You have a calling, a great destiny, but God will not force it on you. If you choose not to, He wont force you to. Our God is a great God, abounding in Mercy and abundant in Grace, but He is such a great respector of free choice that he will never ever in fringe on free choice...
in the end, it is your choice that matters...
Choice and speech go hand in hand. You cannot decide in your heart and not say with with your mouth. Say not what you see, but what you want it to be. in any case, i've really been winding around alot, but in essence, what i want to say is this: Dont accept your circumstances for what they are, Change them into what they could become. Change what you cannot accept, and only accept what you cannot change.
Word of the Post: Brumal: Of or pertaining to winter( e.g brumal winds, same use as aestival but different meaning.)
Sorry, jus have to stick this one in: Solstice: really poetic word which almost no one ever uses, simply means: The time when the moon is closes to the earth, happens twice a year. used in conjunction with aestival and brumal, i'e, the brumal solstice. Dun use it if u dun noe what your doing.

2004-04-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, Proverbs 9.10
the key to excellence in your studiesis, i believe, is worship. To worship God is to thank Him for the what He's done for you. There fore, the key to wisdom, Which is farbetter than intelligence, is to simply thank Him for it. Do not ask Him for wisdom, aas though He has not given it, but thank Him for it knowing you have been given it.the problem with many today is they keep asking for what they already have, trying to be who they alredy are. Simply rest in the knowledge of your identity in Christ. Who are we in Christ? We are Who He is. WE are as Jesus. Today, God does not accept you for who you are, He accepts you for who Jesus is. You are not a loser, not a bum, not a reject, you are who Jesus is. Stop insulting God by saying youre lousy, because to say that would be to say that Jesus is lousy, and i know for sure Hes not, and i know for sure youre not. Who can say ur worthless, if God saw enough worth in you to give up His own Son for you?You are greatly loved, let no one convince you otherwise. Know this: This is not your battle, its your victory. The victory was won 2000 years ago, all you have to do is claim it. Know that God is good, and that he is good to you. You are blessed, start acting like it. Word of the post: Aestival. Of or pertaining to summer,Adj.
E.g The coruscating grains of sand stirred as the aestival breeze whispered by.(aestival can almost replaace summer as a word, nice way to say it. of course, it is NOT "it was aestival time" or other such stuff.)

2004-04-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

im sort of wondering why everyone else always seems so depresses, so unhappy... Life is wonderful, we should all enjoy it... if you cant be happy with what you have now, you cant be happy with anything. Dun see the glass as half empty or half full, ask for a refill.

2004-04-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

Yay...almost all my projects are over already, most excellent...of course, theres still the two most irritatingly impossible projects left... First of, its the flash project. I, for one, dont like to engage in the whole wear-nothing-but-trench-coat-and-flash-young-girls thing...of course, thats not the sort of flash i have to do, its worse. its the sort of flash which involves staring stupidly at a computer screen watching small shapes flash across and poring meticulously over lines of code. Hmm, of course, there are people who enjoy this sort of thing, but it just isnt my cup of tea. my cup of teas usually cold, with lots of sugar in it. my cup of tea could also be one of those small china cups filled with steaming sugar and two lumps of earl grey. But then again, thats just me. The second daunting projsect is of course the infamous and insipid i-search. What fun it is to spend hours flipping briefly through dusty old research journals just to find that one qoute....ah well, learnt alot of stuff at least. Writ coms been quite good....Praise God its almost over though, its been a miracle for me to have been able to survive this sem with the amount of work i put in...You know, to all of you out there, i say this: if ever you face trials(as you most definitely will), dont be angry, sad, defiant, dissapointed or whatever. No one said that they wouldnt come, in fact, Jesus Himself says that for His sake we will be persecuted. When ur faced with troubles, rejoice! do not see trials as trials, but see them as an opportunity for God to work in your life. For surely He will turn all evil to good for your sake, and there is nothing which can defeat Christ in you. Know this too, that He loves you. In act, i pray above all things that you may come to know this love for you. I my self cannot fully comprehend this love, for it is too much for any man to comprehend. Have a revelation of His love for you, and all other things shall fall into place. Even if you know nothing else, and care for nothing else, remember this one thing: That Jesus loves you. He loved you enogh to die for you, i know He loves you enough to give you the desires of your heart. All you need to do is ask... Know that it is his joy to give to you everything youve ever wanted, all you have to do is ask...Dont think that you are telling Him what you want because He doesnt know it.,cos He knows. He even knows the hairs on your head, what makes you think He doesnt know the thoughts and he desires you hold in your heart? When you ask Him, what your doing is this: You are admitting that you cannot get it on your own, and that you are weak, and you are submitting to Him. Once you do that, once you have submitted yourself to him and are no longer struggling to obtain or deserve that blessing, He can work freely in your life. Two peole cant drive one car at the same time, you have to let go, to let God. These things are too big for you, give them to Him...and He has taken care of them, and you are held in His arms... You are Blessed...

2004-04-19T15:29:00.000+08:00

Even though its now one day away from my deadline for this research paper thing, or atleast for the consultation on this research paper thing, i still have no desire to do the stupid thing. Its really plain insipid and soporific....Sigh, no matter, no matter what happens i'll still Praise Jesus, cos i know in Him i have the Victory. Im not praising Him because i want it, but because i already have it. Its simply a matter of enduring for another week or two...Ah well...i know that all i have to do is to just sit down for two hours and il be able to finish it, just that i dont even know where to begin... Ill just start by having a little worship time with Him , cos the fear(reverential worship) of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

2004-04-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hello all, this my first post on my first blog... Praise jesus its that time of the year again where all the projects pile up and everyone else is sort of freakin out. Should be starting to freak out too, maybe even sometime soon. Hopefuly before i actually finish sem so i can get some work done....Praise God though, for He is good, and i know that the victory has been won, so i rest in that victory...in any case, i doubt anyone will be able to find this anytime soon, cos its kinda new, and i aint tellin anyone until ive got it nice and spiffy. Wonderful thing about these rave and ranting things is, lots of free space to air your own oppinions and other such stuff. No worries, cos i got lots of those. Mostly this'll be on God and how good He is, has been, and will be to me. of course, gonna haf to odd bit of philosophy crap that i always find so amusing. If ur expecting to find good old fashioned cheem english, probably going to happen sometime soon when i start ranting about the state of the world and politics and crap, enough trash to decently write your way through a gp essay or university essay, whichever comes first. Of course, do remember ur APA referencing, dun wana get penalized for plagerism. And, as youve probably already noticed, my spellings less than perfect. so use a dictionary or something, cos i sure dont.